God please......

My heart skipped

a

beat

yesterday......

Yesterday afternoon I was babysitting for Baby Austin,

the preemie baby that I have asked for prayer for.

I was holding him and he appeared to be upset.....

his body would draw up

and he would let out a

cry.

oh my goodness, it looked all too familiar to me.

God please don't let this baby be having seizures....

right here

with me holding him.

When his mother came to pick him up

she was holding him and he started doing it

again.

I didn't even have to say a word...

she said "I think he might be having seizures".

Mike and I looked at each other....we knew.

I immediately felt sick to my stomach.

He started to whimper

and one

tear fell from his

eye.

My heart hurt so bad as my mind

raced to the what if's...thinking-

what else can his little body hold up to?

He appears to have one kidney functioning-

doesn't have full sight in his eyes-

and now this....

I told her immediately that it appeared

he was having a type of seizure called

infantile spasms.

I am so beyond mad, because I know first hand the damage

that these seizures could do to his body.

Ashlyn was diagnosed at her one year check up with the nasty beast.

It took away her smile, it took away her eye contact

her muscle tone, and the list could go on....

Why is this happening God? Why him?

She took him to his pediatrician today-

***The pediatrician***

who told me that it appeared Ashlyn was having infantile spasms.

He was right about Ashlyn.

I am praying that he is not right about Austin.

He made her an appointment for an EEG---

Dear God please, please prove us wrong, (and nothing worse) I beg you....